Thursday, February 4, 2016

So I had the med tweak and it seems to really be helping.   I've noticed the last several days I've actually been happy.   It's a good change.   I don't feel like I'm just here anymore.   I hope it lasts.   Anxiety has been up a little, but that I can deal with.   Nothing big.   Just not wanting to talk on the phone to a stranger, made the hubby do it.   I just couldn't.   It was too much.    I'm working on it.  

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Wow.  It's been a long while since I"ve posted over here.  I'm going to try to get back in the saddle of writing posts.   It may help me...    Things have been up and down.   The kids are doing ok.   Braeden is having some mood issues, that we're working through.   I'm homeschooling all 3, and all 3 are in scouts.   Richard tackles Boy Scouts with Connor and Girl Scouts with Morri and I tackle Cub Scouts with Braeden (only because I can't drive at night, otherwise I'd tackle girl scouts with Morri too).  Things with me have been up and down as well.   Just did a med tweak and hoping to stabilize.  Been feeling a bit out-of-sorts and left out lately.   Friends, family...  Partly due to my moods being off....  I'm just not as "approachable" as I'd like to be.   Part of it is due the fact that I chose to homeschool the kids, so I don't get that "Kid Free" time during the day that my friends get.  Part of it is just that I'm not out-going and worry that I'll get "shot-down" if I initiate it.  Regardless of the reason, it leaves me a bit sad.   Sad for myself, sad for my kids too...  I know they don't get as many opportunities to play with their peers as others do because of my hurdles.  So then on top of feeling down, I feel guilty too.   I"m trying to get better at it.   Trying...