Monday, November 21, 2011

HUGE step...

Taking a huge huge huge step outside of my comfort zone. I am holding a jewelry show at my house to display my jewelry and hang out with everyone. I'm terrified! It's not that I worry no one will buy anything.. if they don't, well they don't, and I'm just out the money for snacks and I had a good time with friends.. I'm terrified that no one will show up. I have done "parties" in the past... things like Pampered Chef, that sort of thing... and had my mom show up. And that's it. And then I'm out all this food and left feeling very upset because no one wants to drive out to my neck of the woods.. I'm terrified that no one will want to come this way. I know it is a self-esteem issue. It's something I struggle deeply with. I worry that if no one shows, it reflects on how people see or feel about me.. Which is silly... but not at the same time. I just hope that I can pull this off, have people show up and have a good time and not panic about it... I know I'll be a ball of anxiety.. I'm already feeling it now that the invitations have gone out. I already have people saying they'll come.. which is awesome! But I have this thought in the back of my head that everyone will cancel at the last minute. I can only hope that won't happen and try really hard to think only positive outcomes... Can I do that? God I hope so!

Sunday, November 13, 2011


The craft show was a bust :( Only sold one necklace.. oh well.. People just don't appreciate high quality hand made items anymore it seems... Got lots of complements but no bites.. Left me feeling really depressed about it. I want my jewelry to get off the ground even more so than my artwork.. Art I KNOW is very hit or miss.. you have to have JUST the right market, but jewelry I would have thought with my "talents" would have taken off so much easier. It really leaves me questioning myself. I LOVE LOVE LOVE to make it.. And selling it seems second nature.. and I get quite a few "off Etsy" sales so my shop doesn't really reflect my success.. but I want it to be bigger, ya know? Maybe it's more that I just want to be a success at something? I dunno... Ok, enough rambling..