Monday, March 28, 2011


To be at peace in any endeavour,
we must release our need
to control the outcome.

~ Diane Dreher (from 'The Tao of Inner Peace') ~

Release. It's something I have a VERY hard time with. Release of of the past, release of anger, release of control. To be at peace... I'd like that, to be at peace... So to be at peace we must RELEASE the need to control the outcome.. release the need to control, release the need to control... The need to control the outcome of our day, to control the outcome of our children, of our lives. RELEASE the need to control. RELEASE. Well.. that's great.. but how? How do we release the need to control? How do we find this peace? Well.. I think the key is to find and concentrate on the joy, not on the control. If you live for joy, live life for the sheer happiness of it your focus will shift and you will begin to RELEASE without even being aware of it..

Live in Joy

Live in Joy, In love,
Even among those who hate.

Live in joy, In health,
Even among the afflicted.

Live in joy, In peace,
Even among the troubled.

Look within. Be still.
Free from fear and attachment,
Know the sweet joy of living in the way.

from the Dhammapada, Words of the Buddha
he way.

I found my joy in jewelry making.. a sheer JOY in working beads.. and it does give me the ability to release control from certain aspects in my life. Things have been more at peace than before.. Now I need to practice RELEASE of control in my jewelry business, I need to get back to simply doing it for the sake of pure JOY. Making creations that just simply sing out from with in me as I always have, just because it makes me smile, just because I have to touch and feel the stones, work the beads, keep my hands busy, pouring positive energy into what I do. Simple and pure JOY. SHIFT..... RELEASE..... Peace.

~Just Me
FaerieNotions' Gems

Friday, March 4, 2011

Internal struggle...

I'm at war with myself... I feel an internal struggle between the need to create simply for the joy of it, doing things in my own style, my own way, and the need to to create for profit and success of the business. The latter involves a compromise though. It involves changing the style of my jewelry to a more desired, more mainstream "popular" look and fashion. While I guess I'm not fully against it, it's just not me. I create because I love it. It's just that while I do have confidence in the fact that my work is good, looks great, and many people compliment it, compliments aren't purchases.. And success I guess is measured by profit and purchases alike. I haven't had any purchases of late, there for haven't been able to purchase any new materials.. so I'm exhausting what little bit I have in stock.. It's very frustrating and I think that is the main cause behind this latest episode of measured success. Really, how do we measure success? Am I a successful jewelry designer? Talented? Sure, I can toot my own horn there.. :) I don't mind doing that at all! (And that is saying something, I'm not a horn tooter by any stretch!) But success, that I just don't know about.. and I don't know if I can compromise myself to make that success happen.. ahh... way too much to think about on this rainy afternoon...