Saturday, December 18, 2010

Waiting for the Light

Yule. It's a time of for celebration. It's a time for family, a time for love. The winter solstice is the longest night of the year. It's a time when the earth is plunged into darkness. It's a time to reflect on all that the night holds, all that the darkness represents. It's a time to learn and a time to reflect. As a pagan, I believe that winter is a time when Goddess rests, she is tired of her hard work, it's a time when mother earth rests, weary from providing for her children. I believe that Yule, the longest night of the year, provides a turning point, a welcoming of the God, the light, the sun, back to the earth. It's a time to give up to the dark all the things that need to change.. It's a time to ask for help to accept the changes that come with the turning of the night to day, of the dark to light, of the bad to good. I have had a difficult year this year. I've made a lot of choices, thought a lot of things. It has been a very trying year for my family. I haven't been very willing to accept what needed to be changed, having been very open to the guidance that Goddess has provided me. Now, as I sit and contemplate the year I've had, I understand things in a way I didn't a short while before. I've come to discover that there are some choices, some sacrifices that I must make, some things that are simply worth the choice. This year, on the darkest night of the year, while I wait with my fellow pagans, waiting for the light to come, I will give to the dark what needs to be given. I will give up my anger to the dark, my fear, my control, my self-doubt. I am willing and accepting, I am open. I am ready for the light of a new day and a new year.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Speaks to my core...

I found this on my PaganTeam webpage.. It speaks to me, on so many levels, it touches me to my core.. There are so many things for me to work on... and so much I have yet to grasp, yet with this, daily reading it, daily praying it, daily LIVING it.. I know I can succeed.. I must...


I asked The Goddess to take away my pain.

The Goddess said, No. It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked The Goddess to make my handicapped child whole.

The Goddess said, No. Her spirit is whole, her body was only temporary.

I asked The Goddess to to grant me patience.

The Goddess said, No. patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted,

it is earned.

I asked The Goddess to give me happiness.

The Goddess said, No. I give you blessings. Happiness is up to you.

I asked The Goddess to spare me pain.

The Goddess said, No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and

brings you closer to me.

I asked The Goddess to make my spirit grow.

The Goddess said, No. You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to

make you fruitful.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.

The Goddess said, No. I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked The Goddess to help me love others, as much as she loves me.

The Goddess said, Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.

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