Thursday, April 1, 2010

wow...

Looking down there, hrm.. yeah, I really am insane aren't I?? Feeling a good bit better this morning.. Klonipin does that.. Took the first .5 and nothing. Took another .5 at bedtime.. Feeling better now.. Hoping I can handle what's on my plate now that the "meltdown" is over...

4 comments:

shenry said...

Reading the last couple post was an emotional roller coaster... Whheee! AAaaAargh! Phew!

Glad to see things have stabilized.

Just Me said...

yeah, that's life with me... :P thanks Shenry :) Feeling better :)

sandra.mayer said...

MY Sweet One,
There are many paths on life's journey and they lead in many different directions..I understand much of what u are saying about urs, have been there in some of the same ways.
I have found that there is only one way to sanity and peace and that way is Jesus Christ. The word of God, alive, and free.
It isn't an easy journey but a worth while one. Since Jesus loved us enough to die for us John 3:16, then He must see us differently than we see ourselves
and if He sees us as worthwhile then He desires that we see ourselves through His eyes.Ps 139 Through those eyes we are all that we desire to b. Artistic...In the beginning God Created the world...He spoke it into being...in John 1:1 it says In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God...speaking of Jesus! When we ask Him to forgive us and live through us we start thinking of Him more than self and we start becomming what He is! Artistic, Writer, good at all we do in Him! We start living for others and becoming a new creation.The masks u speak of peel of and u become that new person in Him. I know this is true because I have walked this journey before u. Mine weren't maske but shoes. I had a pair of shoes for the many moods of many people and I walked carefully to see which pair I needed to pull out and wear for that time and life was miserable. God made each of us individuals. Read Ps. 139 everyday until it becomes truth to u. 4 Core Truths in it are God knows me Ps 139: 1-4!He protects me!Ps 139:5-12 He made me! Ps 139: 13-16 He values me!Ps 139:17-18; When I learn this my response will b: I choose to take His side! I want to love what He loves!I want to hate what He hates! I choose to live differently! This is from the book deeper by Debbie Alsdorf...I may b able to get u a copy if u want it and it is such an easy read but so valuable when one is trying to find theirself.
I know who u r! and I love u just as u r! That is what Jesus said to us when He stretched out His arms on the cross and gave up all He was to bear our inability and sin to the death. The Spirit of God departed Him and He cried out My God, My God why hast Thou forsaken Me? He bore that death alone so that we could have life and have it more abundantly!!That means to the fullest, to b all He created us to b and to live as He created us to live!

Just Me said...

We each have our own path to follow. Christianity isn't my path, and that's ok. I'm making it slowly down my path, and will branch several times I"m sure, but I will end up on the path set for me. Mom and I talk a lot about stuff like that, she's a great person to "debate" with :) I appreciate your caring. *hugs*