Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Don't know why, or what triggered it. Could've been the dog eating the toys, shitting and pissing in my house.. Could have been the diva screaming HER head off all day.. could've been the oldest and his accident.. I don't know.. All I know is I want to run away today.. My kids don't need this, they don't need me. They need a loving and caring mom.. not me.. not this "satan" version of mom... I just don't know what to do what to think.. yesterday was ok, why isn't today? Something has GOT to give. I'm not sure how much more I can deal with, not sure how much more my KIDS can deal with.. I FUCKING HATE THIS.